When people pass me by. I don't really always know what to do. Often I walk about with a throbbing in my chest. Regret I think it's called. Reflection breeds regret. I always waste so much time in doing nothing at all. I guess I'm indecisive, too hesitant to act. Fuck. That felt good. Profanity is verbal release for the caged. Or maybe it's just me? I don't like your perceptions of me. Your logic offends me. I can see it in the way you see me when you look. I can see the judgement on your faces. I only mean well. Most of the time. I guess. Maybe. I have so much to do. Yet I am lying here. Writing. Nothing any of you would read. This is all just for me. So why do I bother. God please forgive me for not believing enough. After all the proof I've witnessed with my own two eyes. I am nothing but a farce. A cheap illusion. A hypocrite? I never was very content with truth. Cheap thrills. Expensive highs. Love makes the world go blind. I am tired now. Goodbye.

I slither, I crawl. I am in fact nothing at all. And if I were I'd rather not say. Talents are better off hidden away. After all, nobody likes a show off.

Time is ticking on the wall. Time is pacing in my hall. Time whispers frantic in my ear. Words I do not care to hear. I am chasing after it. Clawing, grasping,reaching out for it. It does not even steal a glance. How I wish I did when I had the chance.

Bitter Reminiscence

Death hide in my shadow and strike with godspeed and the devil's brutality intertwined,the malice flowing through this veins has a subtle side. one less deranged
Some say it's profound while other's find it profane
Tormenting my cerebrum driving me insane this plague
eats into my soul depriving me of reason going out of fuckin control
No one hears me scream inside I bet they don't even bother
They don't know the shame I hide inside my darkened past
Sometimes when it gets too hard to bear I take another dose of despair
I know it destroys me but so far I guess I never fuckin cared

When my adversaries leave me cold
I let Him corrode my soul
I listen to His whispers in my ear
No words any other being should hear
Conscience Corrupt

Blasphemy...
Black little tragedies constrict me from embracing love with open arms
Hatred is the parasite that clings to me ever tightening it's grasp
My apologies if you are unable to comprehend this abomination I've become
For what I've seen with these bloodshot eyes have blackened every bit of my lifeless heart..
I can't trust anyone anymore

They think I like this,this cold misery
But they are wrong
I wish to feel like they do but this carrion curse is ever so strong..
I wish I could eradicate this frost I've felt for so fucking long

Ever since her death I've wondered was there ever true love?
Her porcalein skin her tender touch sent shivers down my spine
Her soft white throat her moistened lips
made my mouth water with delight
We fell from grace on that blasphemous night

Years after,I ponder and nothing proved more true
than her love towards me...Necromancy,Resurrection,Deals with the Fiend could never reincarnate my love

So I blamed Divinity for my loss,I detested him through and through
I despised him for seperating me from you
Sometimes I wonder if you remember our times from beyond the grave
I wish you well for in depths of Hell shall my love remain..Addictions I crave but nothing could suffice the need I have for you...

And so this ends a brief reminiscence

Thank God For The Suffering

The Bitch Of Angels

The Bitch Of Angels

She's a slack one,born of greed
Speaking endless words,long and empty
A beggar who still wants to choose
A dethroned queen,who still demands her due.
If you want something for nothing you take what you get,
A virgin whore in a dirty wedding dress

Scream for salvation,beating on death's door
But just be careful what you wish for.

There's bloodstain on the ceiling,
But you're the only duck in the shooting gallery
Trying to look out in a bricked-in window
Your destiny lies in the alley below
Trying to see yourself in a shattered mirror
When all else fails she holds you in broken arms
Theres poison in her veins but the bitch comes for free
A quick fix for all that you think you need

Scream for salvation beating on death's door
But just be careful what you wish for
The patron saint of fools answers your request
She's all yours now,so deal with it

There's no shoulder left to cry wolf on
You're tied knots can't be undone
No more warnings will fall on deaf ears
You lied too many times now no one cares
No one cares.

An empty promise with a heat of tin,
Her crooked smile beguiles and draws you within
The hope for something more,all that you wish for
A kick to the head,and a boot to the door
Chasing a dragon in a ladies clothes,
A paper trail ends in choking smoke.
But you know that you lit the match yourself
Play the burning cards you dealt

Scream for salvation beating on death's door,
But just be careful what you wish for.
The patron saint of fools answers all your requests.
She's all yours now so deal with it.

Broken...

Vigil

Heres more of a satanic side of me:

Our father thy will be done
I have denied this life its worth
I will not be the victim.
Sickness to you my master
Here's to getting worse
Hope it kills you faster
Show me how it hurts to rot inside out
This vigil burns
Until the day our fires overtake you
Our father we forsake you
Blessed be his name
Nothing now is the same
Ask me why I hate
Why I prayed to see the nation that I loved disintegrate
And gladly give my life
That revolution regenerates
In honour of the strife of those who died
In generations before your blooodstained glory

I reject you
I deny you
I defy you to continue
Smite the sheperd and the sheep will be scattered